stupid ex's and there kids

I know this is a never ending story but i just dont know what else to do. I am so tired of my children going with out stuff due to that fact of a crazy ex that my husband has. Every time it feels like we are getting a head in life we get nocked back down. We though that we would get a lawyer and fight the increas of his child support and someother things too. It has been long phone calls with them back and forth on everthing. Then out of the blue we get a letter in the mail about his child support and found out that it went from 411 a month to 978 a month now that is a huge chunck of change out of our paycheck and this is all becasue, the atourny did not show up to court and on top of it all did not tell us about it so we could have shown up at court. So now that looks bad on Jeff and he has stayed on top of all of that so it would not look bad. Ugh and the up setting part about it all is that we know the money is not going to the kids at all not with trips to las vegas and the constent partying. I am just at a loss on what to do my two little boys have to suffer cause we now have to pay her so much money. I have been trying to get a job but that seams like a never ending battol around here being in such a small town and not having a car to go to the next town to work is really hard. I have applied no joke 14 jobs and out of that 14 I have only had one job interview. I just dont know what I am doing wrong. I am tired of it all. I want more for my children and I try but my boys have to suffer. . . . I am so sick and tired of hearing about here and when she has nothing better to do in her life she likes to cose havick on our life. . . I know this is a bad thing to think but I have though numras of times in the last couple of months of devorcing my husband cause I am so sick and tied of dealing with it, and he just does not seam to try hard enough to fix the hole situation. I am done dealing with it. I dont want to be invalved with any of it anymore. If he wants to just let things happen then he can do it with out me casue. I want things better for me and my boys they should not have to suffer and the courts donot even count us in jeffs finances. That is that crapy part about it all. I know this blog is all over the place and does not make sence but this is the only way i can get out my feelings on how I really feel. The funny thing is that she calls jeff a dead beat father. . well He can only be that if he never pays child support and never tryes to see his kids witch he does but now she has the kids so brain wash that they do not want to have anything to do with him and she tryes pushing the kids off on other guys and that is why she never can keep a boy friend. ugh i am just so tired of it all.