Life

So we got our states taxes yesterday. I was So releafed to see that we have some money. But now i am worryed that we might end up spending most of or money on fix that truck. It is over heating and it sounds really rough when we drive it. I have already put coolent in it So I know it is not that. I am just so sick and tire of that stupit thing. My husband love it so much he wont traid it in for a new car. And the other thing is that we where sapo to get our fediral taxes deposited today in to our acound and I am fliping out that we are not going to get it even though we have not recived a note saying it is going to be off set or anything. Cause with that I was going to buy my ticket to portland witch is going to cost me a lot cause I missed the good deals. Then Jeff promest me that we could get a used car. I am just so tired of having to worrie about money If i work day care is going to cost me a arm and lag casue of my son and his diabetes. So it is better that i do not work then we are always strugling to try and fig out how we are going to put food in the house and pay all the bills. only on 600 a month. That is right just 600 a month. With ryans birthday coming up I just want him to have a good day.

Yesterday I took Conner in for his 2 month visit it was not a fun one at all we found out that he has a ear infection. So He is not on medication for that then he got his two month shots so he his not a happy camper right now. but the poor baby still smiles at you. I also found out that he needs to have more tummy time casue it will help develop his valve in his neck that is under developed. He then is going ot have to be be seen back in a month and if that has not improved we are going to have to take him to a spechlest about it. I am begaing to think I am making falty kids. Conner has had things go on with him we have had to worry about even be for he was born and Ryan you just wont beleave what things he has going for him. ashmadic, Diabetes, speach delay. I am glad that i have desided now to have anymore children. I just wish life would give me a breack from all this sometimes. So i dont have anything to stress about. but I gues that is why they tell you life is never easy. I am just going to have to fig things out to help me cope with what I am dealt in life. My uncle once told me that carma will always come back on you. And I am really begining to belave that more and more. I was not a easy child when I as in my teens I will admit it. I put my family and parents throwgh a lot of things that I should not have. And I am beaging to think that I am geting payed back for that. with all that is going on in my life some way some how it feels like it is payback.